Date:	2002-09-02 16:36
Subject:	new livejournal _ohgirl
Security:	Public
Mood:	determined
Music:	On The Might Of Princes

i just noticed that there's a bunch of people who still have xvictoriax (this journal) on their friends list. I don't use this one anymore so I figured I'd post one last time to urge people to add my new livejournal to their friends list:
_ohgirl
go change it now.
xoxo
vicki

changed my livejournal name:
shes_all_alone

people have no respect...
people are starting shit...
i'm just gonna keep my mouth a little more closed from now on....
edit ur friends and put my new name there...
please

Date:	2002-08-02 14:07
Subject:	no, you don't have to pay me back.
Security:	Public
Mood:	crushed
Music:	Neutral Milk Hotel-In The Aeroplane Over The Sea

wish i didnt have work today.
hang from that basketball hoop forever...
i wish my eyes were a camera...so you wouldn't know when i document your every move.
sigh, it's all so amazing.
kisses on shoulders and hugs so tight.
if only you'd admit you like it too.

i signed up for an art conspiracy account last night. i didn't put much stuff up yet because i wasn't up for scanning it all yet. but go check it out anyway...
(i couldnt get the links to work right sorry ) :
http://www.artconspiracy.com/conspiracy_eye_gallery.asp?id=2144105062&counthit=1

(leave comments and stuff)
=)

Date:	2002-08-01 19:06
Subject:	50 by next saturday
Security:	Public
Mood:	nostalgic
Music:	the beautiful mistake-december was a long year...

and the song played on... and my heart was bouncing. and it was lovely. i just wish i could push replay. i just wish i knew it wouldnt end when the song did. i just wish something more was there.

my family hates me. i need somewhere to go.

i dont fucking want to be alone anymore. i can only say that so many times.

Date:	2002-08-01 04:41
Subject:	i hate myself.
Security:	Public
Mood:	depressed

so upset.
crying for hours.
would rather not exist right now.
wish this world would just end.

Date:	2002-07-31 13:16
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	excited
Music:	Mogwai

just woke up- to beautiful and lovely IMs and voicemail messages... all happy birthday and what not.
i love everyone today.
hopefully.

shoppping with my brother this morning.... then off to do something fun, then to the show tonight....

yay*

i miss drew.

Date:	2002-07-31 01:39
Subject:	18 years, 1 hours and 39 minutes old.
Security:	Public
Mood:	high
Music:	sebadoh-nothing like you

it's my birthday... WHEEEEEEEEEE!
moving on...
i got a new book today. i'm very excited about it.
went out to stir crazy... got the vegetarian meal. it was real good. i want to keep ray in my pocket.
got a new hives cd and sebadoh cd today. yay...
noelle is great. i miss her dearly.
fun stuff tomorrow...

Date:	2002-07-25 08:25
Subject:	get ready...
Security:	Public
Mood:	gloomy
Music:	neutral milk hotel-in the aeroplane over the sea

today:
babysitting 8:45-1 = tiring walking around nyack all morning
photography class = 3-5:40
hot topic = 6-close....
sigh

Date:	2002-07-25 03:38
Subject:	i was wrong.
Security:	Public
Mood:	anxious
Music:	coheed-everything evil

things are looking up again...

Date:	2002-07-25 00:40
Subject:	fly on my sweet angel.
Security:	Public
Mood:	accomplished
Music:	Cursive-Fairytales Tell Tales

so yes, i got my wings finished today. ouch. so very painful...
but they're done, and i love every inch of them.....
this is the only picture i could get up here now.. and it doesnt do them justice... but more will come.



(ps. i love this song so very much)

Date:	2002-07-24 12:00
Subject:	sure, now he'll talk to me.
Security:	Public
Mood:	tired
Music:	Old 97s-What I Wouldn't Do.

so tired. I have to go to the bank to switch my account. It's all sorts of fucked up. They canceled my debit card already, cuz I tried to buy an Invader Zim shirt yesterday and my card got declined, yet i have over $500 in my account. Bastards. So i need like $400 for my tattoo today so I have to go to the bank and work everything out before i go. I'm picking up Jill and then picking up Kate... They both want to talk to Paula about stuff...
I can't wait until they are done and healed... it will be great.
Noelle is starting her move today... hope it's going well.

Date:	2002-07-24 01:56
Subject:	i wish i heard from you again.
Security:	Public
Mood:	blah
Music:	At The Drive In-Pickpocket

nothing to do tonight.
i can practically put my hair in a ponytail. that is a sign that it is way too long.

i wish i wasn't sleeping alone tonight.

one day i want to be able to use to "loved" mood icon.

maybe i will just for fun.

Date:	2002-07-23 18:50
Subject:	the pain will feel good tomorrow.
Security:	Public
Mood:	aggravated
Music:	Built To Spill - Reasons

it's storming out. rain, thunder, lightning... i have to drive to work now. sigh. i hope i get there o.k.
I don't know why but I just changed my shirt like 5 times...
I need to talk to drew, i'm losing my mind. he puts me through hell, i don't think he even knows.
i don't think he even cares.
i don't want to go to work...
i need time to myself..... i need to think. i'm a mess.

Date:	2002-07-23 18:05
Subject:	how do people find happiness?
Security:	Public
Mood:	sympathetic
Music:	Fairweather-Welcome To Last Year

i heard your voice and it was filled with tears.

and it broke my heart...

Date:	2002-07-23 13:39
Subject:	please, please, i'm running out of sympathy.
Security:	Public
Mood:	rushed
Music:	Taking Back Sunday-Great Romances of the 20th Century

once again i had stuff do to but i slept too late.
(order flo's shoes, order shannon's plugs)
I have photo class at 3... i have to go buy more paper first, i ran out. damn.
I have work from 7:30-close. what lame hours... like 3 hours. what a waste.

getting tattooed tomorrow. rock on.


(someone send me an angel.)

Date:	2002-07-23 02:36
Subject:	i miss noelle.
Security:	Public
Mood:	depressed
Music:	Pohgoh-Friend X

work tonight was fine. i went out and drank a little. i'm feeling ok right now.... im a wreck. theres noone online to talk to. im so alone
i broke down, i called drew. i havent talked to him since fucking 4th of july. im so sad. im so miserable. i called, he wasnt home. he didnt call me back. tomorrow it'll be 20 days since i've talked to him. i wish he cared... he doesnt care at all.. it fucking kills me.
tomorrow i have class, then work........ sigh.
i ate well today. i hope all this works. cuz it's really hard.
i wish i could meet somebody.
i wish someone loved me back....
i can't wait to go to purchase, hopefully i'll find happiness there...
if anyone can help me out, please do.

Date:	2002-07-22 14:11
Subject:	yes, i said i'd meet you there...
Security:	Public
Mood:	aggravated
Music:	Sheryl's Magnetic Aura-Everything Happens To Me

I slept too long. I wanted to get up around 10 or 11 and go walking... but now it's 2:15 and I have to leave for work at 3.
I watched Corky Romano with Scott and Noelle yesterday. it was fun... I like to hang out with them, but chris was there. he gives me the same kinda feelings i get when i see montana. i want to fucking knock him out and then throw up because everything he says makes me fucking sick.
i wish i could've gone to the converge show yesterday.
What's healthy to eat for breakfast? hmmm....

Date:	2002-07-22 03:54
Subject:	make me beautiful.
Security:	Public
Mood:	depressed

cried on my drive home.
i dont want to be alone anymore.

Date:	2002-07-21 08:00
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	angry

i just went to work and my manager wasnt there...
i sat outside hot topic for 40 minutes
im pissed.

Date:	2002-07-21 06:23
Subject:	beautiful boys will keep me up
Security:	Public
Mood:	cranky

mmm. work-so early. sigh
must sleep more.